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Taking Drugs...

Most of you probably know what this post will be about based on the title. It's not about me admitting that I am addicted to drugs, I have never taken anything nor will I ever. This little diddy is about prescription drugs which is something almost everyone can relate to! If you have been reading any of my posts you will know that I am not the healthiest thing in the world. I have a little list of health issues that I am trying to get under control. My most pressing issue is my Hepatitis C. I was unfortunately born with this so don't even have a crazy story to tell :( It is something that has been looming over me since I found out I had it. Four years ago I started on a treatment regimen of three different drugs. Within a week I had developed congestive heart failure due to one of those drugs. I was in the hospital for five days and finally got to go home. As you can imagine, it has taken me a very long time to try any other medication. Recently though my doctors and I deci

Self love...

I decided to start on a journey today. One that focuses on self love. Self love has been something that I have struggled with my entire life. I have always been the girl that got bullied and told she was ugly, the one that never got picked to go to prom. My own family has a habit of putting me down instead of lifting me up. I feel that as a result of all that, I have had such a problem with my self image and self esteem. I feel as though I don't love myself like I should and that is unacceptable to me. A friend of mine told me about this YouTube channel called Yoga With Adriene. She told me that this lady is not like other yoga instructors that pretend life is perfectly zen and nothing is wrong with the world, I was a little skeptical but decided to try her out. I LOVE her!!! She is so down to earth and REAL! She messes up sometimes and goes with the flow because guess what that's what life is about. I have been picking through her videos and have loved all the ones I have tr

The struggles are real...

I find myself sitting here this morning with my cup of coffee and my computer. I am trying to calm my mind down for 2 seconds as it has been going nonstop for a while now and I am driving myself insane. I have a window to the right of me that looks out into my back yard, and as I look out now I see the most stunning Central Oregon sunrise. Seeing those breathtaking moments makes me remember that the universe has my back and that it will all be ok. I have been dealt some pretty shitty cards in life. At 26 years old I have experienced things most people will never have to in their entire life. I want to share some of this in hopes that there is someone out there going through the same thing and will know that they are not alone. My mother passed away from liver failure due to Hepatitis C. Unfortunately for me I contracted that virus at birth. I had no idea I had it until 2010 when I started getting strange spots on my legs that I now call flare ups. In some cases Hep C causes something

This guy i know...

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Hello there! Today I wanted to do a post about this amazing guy I know. He is kind, funny, handsome, and caring. He also happens to be my husband ❤ I feel the need to take the time to write about him today because I don't think he gets enough credit for how amazing he really is. Now I am by no means a high maintenance kind of chick. With that being said, I am a little on the crazy side when it come to certain things. I have sensitive feelers and my emotions run extremely high sometimes, to the point where I often question my sanity! It's bad enough being in my own head dealing with all this b.s., but then the husband has to deal with it too and that just isn't fair. He is not the type of guy who shows his emotions very well (other than anger and frustration) and he is not the best at sympathizing with someone or comforting them. He does his best though and I am learning to just be happy with the little bit that I get, because he does do so many things for me that make me

Fall again...

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It's that time of year again. Time for pumpkins, leaves, cozy sweaters, and hot cocoa. Oh and it's time for me to create new Halloween looks! I have ALWAYS had a deep crazy love for Halloween and all things scary/horror. I got that love from my father, so shout out to that cool cat ;) He used to dress up when he took us trick or treating and I always remember him decking out the house to make it look spooky. As I got older I started getting more into doing Halloween makeup and that has stuck with me. I watch TONS of youtube tutorials and am always amazed at how well these people transform themselves into someone or something else. In the past I have done simple things that just involved eyeshadows and such, but the last couple of years I have started learning how to use things like liquid latex.  I am learning though that there are so many possibilities with just good makeup and brushes. This year I have decided to be Billy, the doll from Jigsaw. It's a super simple costu

Starting over

So I started this blog a few years ago and never really did much with it. I would post random things occasionally, but didn't care too much about posting regularly. I would like that to change. So what I decided to do is delete all of my old posts (trust me they weren't a loss) and start all over fresh and new. I want this to be a sort of documentation of my life and I want to share things on here. Things that I learn along the way and just everyday living kind of stuff. I do have an array of health problems and so, live a pretty healthy lifestyle. I am often asked what I do to keep healthy and thin, in this blog I want to share my secrets (which are not so secret). I do love this life I live and I want to do all that I can to stay here as long as I can. I am a lover of essential oils and all things natural!! Unlike most people these days, I do not take many prescriptions and stay the hell away from processed junk as much as possible. I am married and have two beautiful dog